July 16th... special in so many ways

So alot of you know that I am down in Albany right now, spending time with my parents who are having their 40th wedding anniversary today. Can you imagine? 40 years. Anyway, it is nice to spend more than just a night here. And my mind is wrapped up in the stuff that my sister and are doing getting a BBQ together for them to celebrate.

But that is just one reason that this day is special.

Also on this day, the world was blessed with an absolute joy named Teresa.

I have known Teresa for a long time. And honestly for the first few years, we did not bother getting to know eachother. Life and all that;P

However, a few years ago, when my world was turned upside down and on it's ear... suddenly Teresa appeared and took me under her protective, healing wing, and I found a friend that I could not imagine life without. She helped me through one of the hardest things I will probably ever have to go through in my life. She helped me to see that I COULD make it through anything, and come out stronger. She showed me that I have worth and that I truly am loved. She took me in both figuratively, and then physically, to help me get back on my feet and get my life back on track.

WE have been through alot together, and put eachother through alot. heh. Typical friends. We have laughed, cried, been angry at eachother, and every other emotion in the spectrum.

I cannot go to Burgerville without feeling weird, cuz that is Teresa's and my place and it does not feel right to be there without her. I can't simply say the phrase "She's DUMB!!!" without a smile and hearing Teresa's voice in my head. I have memory upon memory that I cherish. Nobody else has the memory of "Weather Lady Teresa" pretending to be an airplane, or the playful argument of "i'm gonna be alive, YOU'RE not!":P Okay, in that one, she won. She was alive. I wasn't. BUT... at least I did not get stuck with the nickname of "Nutbean"... Which will forever be yours, my love;)

i remember her getting into her "nesting" mood. She would crank up the music, and harass me until we both started cleaning, just being goofy about it, making sure our home was a nice place to live, a safe, relaxing haven for both of us in a nutty world. Then we would just curl up and talk for hours.

I remember all the errand trips in her car. All the songs we decided fit me, depending on what I was going through at that moment. You would not believe how many Alanis and Matchbox 20 songs fit:P Then there was also us blaring Big and Rich out the windows. To this day, I cannot help grinning when I hear "How Come Everybody Wants To Kick My Ass"". That also goes for Matchbox 20's "Mad Season" with it's opening lyric of "I FEEL STUPID!!" ..... hmmm, guess you would have to be there to understand the entertainment this provided for us:P

The last time I spent time with her was a couple months ago. She is and will remain the ONLY PERSON ON THIS EARTH that will get me to garden:P And She is still one of the only people I feel totally comfortable with any and every possible conversation or situation you could imagine. Whether it be work, sex, guys and girls in general, dreams and fears, etc. Or whether it simply is us sitting and blubbering pathetically over a sappy movie:P We can do that together. That is the definition of friendship.

Teresa has a wonderful man in her life and she moved out a ways to be with him. He is worth it. The simple contentment on her face when we would encounter a train. And nothing can compare to her looking at me, suddenly having a grin the size of Texas on her face and simply saying " I'm so HAPPY!!!" I wish all the people I loved had that.

We don't talk very often, as we both are so busy in our lives. I know I don't let her know often enough that she truly is in my thoughts and that I love her very much. But she is. And I do. I need to work on that, so I know that she knows it. heh.

Teresa, my love...You are my friend, my sister, my confidante, and a million things rolled into one. I am so grateful for you, and you mean the world to me. I thank God for the day your parents loved and enjoyed eachother and made you:P

Happy Birthday, Nutbean. I LOVE YOU!!!!!! *hugs*